Delusional Debut Songs {both}

Reminder of how Taylor put it:

I Love You, It’s Ruining My Life

“This is a list of songs about getting so caught up in the idea of something that you have a hard time seeing the red flags possibly resulting in moments of denial and maybe a little bit of delusion… results may vary.”

• Lavender Haze, Snow On The Beach (More Lana Version), Sweet Nothing, Glitch, Betty. Willow, Cruel Summer, Lover, Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince, False God, Style, Wildest Dreams, Treacherous, Untouchable, That’s When, Ours, Superman, Bejeweled
  
  

and here are the ones I'd add from Self-titled:

Teardrops on my Guitar

It's a song about pining and wishing.  

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

Drew/You is unattainable to Taylor, yet she pines for them.  

Ours

...my time is theirs

Taylor is not autonomous.  She has her career/business to think about.

Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you

This relationship is not socially acceptable for some reason.  Small-minded (nothing else to do) people are judgmental about the paring.

Side-note:  The following line seems like, what?  Who throws rocks at things that shine?  Is she trying to say skipping stones on water?  But that's kind of a peaceful, natural hobby, not a hater's pastime...  And before I get into this just remember a song can have more than one inspiration.  There can be subtext.  There could be a public narrative and a more private meaning.  There could be an A side and a B side to it, so to speak.  So if you heard something else, two things can be true!  The word SHINE makes more sense if you look at the lyrics of her song, Hey Stephen, which I think is about her having gay-dar about a male school friend...

People throw rocks at things that shine

These judgmental people are throwing rocks at the gays.  Small-minded people figuratively and sometimes actually throw stones at the queers.

And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours

Love is especially hard for same-sex partners.  Stakes are high, because it can be life or death.  Water's rough because gay marriage wasn't even legal when she penned this song.  

And it's not theirs to speculate if it's wrong and
Your hands are tough, but they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith with this song for you

People are saying this relationship is immoral.  Taylor brings up faith, a very loaded word because a lot of churches and religions, in particular, denounce homosexuality...

And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos
Will be ignored, 'cause my heart is yours

And her dad, a conservative, Boomer, Republican doesn't like this person's appearance (and who knows what else).  But Taylor discounts all of the other people's opinions because the love is just between the two people.  But also, it's in this section because the homophobia is pervasive and maybe she currently feels that she was delusional back then in trying to ignore it.

Mary's Song (oh my my)

This one incorporates elements from Untouchable and we see SHINE from Hey Stephen and Ours again.

She said, I was seven and you were nine

Ambiguous who is the she that is talking.  Could be younger Taylor, the neighbor girl, or the mothers that come into the story a bit later.  But why the mystery???

I looked at you like the stars that shine
In the sky, the pretty lights

There's those untouchable, unattainable stars and the light-shining bright, from within, perhaps?

And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled
And rolled their eyes and said oh my my my

When these kids are young the daddies joke about them being in love and the mamas would knowingly roll their eyes.

Well, I was sixteen when suddenly
I wasn't that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights

Here's those lights again.  She saw the light in Stephen, and the crush is lit from within in Snow on the Beach.  

And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we'd really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said oh my my my

Now that the neighbor kids are teens, the daddies change their tune and are kind of snide, while the mamas patronize their husbands, still knowingly.

Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight

Now, Taylor speaks of true intimacy and physical romance with the neighbor.

She proceeds to imagine an entire lifetime with this person:  dating, proposal, marriage where the mamas and the town were supportive (I don't know where the daddies went, I guess leavin' like a father...), having their own children, and growing old together.